Little Deserted Island

I dont understand. I really dont understand. How can someone be like this. You were never this secretive before. Anything also you will tell me.

Remember what you said? "I know you will sad but I will tell you." Yeah I remember. I trust you cause you dont hide anything from me. You tell me everything.

But in this two months, its been hell for me. You're being very secretive. Not telling me things. I feel so lost. I know I can be clingy at times. But if you tell me, you think I'd ask so much? Its the not knowing that is killing me. The things i have to guess or overthink. Its so hard. I dont even know whats going on.

It kills me. To see you got more interest to talk to someone else than me. I thought I'll always be the first to know. Guess I was wrong. Obviously I'm not your top priority anymore.

It feels to me, the things I do for you is so easily forgettable. Suddenly I'm not included in your plans. Im like excluded. Shoot me then.

Little Things

You may not know it. But to me, little things makes a of difference to me. You may think its petty and stupid but to me its not.

Yeah, i'm all in for the big romantic gestures, but the small little things is enough for me. Sometimes i feel like you take me for granted. Isn't a relationship supposed to be a two way street?

Right now im not feeling you at all. Something has changed. You don't wish me goodnight anymore. I'd say goodnight and i get an "ok" from you. WTF? Thats not an "OK" reply. What is it so hard to reply "goodnight" too. Seriously. I dont understand.

When you're angry, you go crazy, you start ignoring me, start throwing your temper on me. Cause I can take it right? Cause no matter what u do I'll still be here for u right?

Like i said little things. When u are tired and sleepy, u get angry for no fucking reason. NO FUCKING REASON. Well I'm not like that. Even no matter how tired or sleepy i am, i still treat u like a princess. Maybe thats just me.

Recently. You also start to not reply my messages. SEEN THEM then not replying. WTF? So hard to reply? You're so fucking busy till cant type in a few words. Good. Very good.

All this things you are doing. Makes me doubt myself. Makes me wonder what am i doing wrong. Is there something i am not doing enough. Do you even know what you are doing?

Bulletproof Heart

I'm fucking sad right now. No amount of words in the fucking English language can comprehend how fucking sad I'm feeling right now.

We love each another right? Why aren't we sharing how are we feeling to each another? Are we looking for the same thing with each another?

I only ask cause I love you. I care for you. I'm concern for you. Yet all you do is push me away. Shut me out. Is all you care is yourself?

What is happening? You say these kind of things and with no explanation, you left me wondering and over thinking so many things. I've been backtracking and checking everywhere on what have I done to have deserve that.

You have no idea how much it hurts. How much pain in feeling. Or is it you do and you're doing it on purpose?

But it's ok. I'll take the bullet. I've got a bulletproof heart anyways.

K

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FUCKING K me.. i hate it when talking to someone and then the person replies "K".

FUCK YOU!

It much worst when it is coming from you. I don't understand you sometimes. When you're mad or pissed, the way you talk to me is like crap. Seriously, maybe its just me, but yeah it fucking hurts. I let it slide, i'm okay with it. I dont want to make things worst so yeah. Whatever.

Even though I'm upset or not in a good mood, I still try to talk to you nicely. How long you want me to suppress all this in?